Earlier today I had gotten kind of angry. So my dad has always been absent and is a deadbeat dad. But he still lives with us. So earlier I looked at him passed out on the couch and I felt bitterness. And with that my thoughts went downhill. I started thinking about how in 10th grade I asked my mom to take me to a doctor so I can get my anxiety problem under control, with medication and she said there's nothing wrong with me and went off on a rant. Then a few years later I started having chronic pain problems and needed to go to a doctor and she still wouldn't take me, and didn't seem to care. Now today 3 years later I still have that chronic pain and also neck issues, stomach issues and all that, need new glasses but in America we can't afford all this stuff. So i just got really angry or bitter today because of this. My family has always been very neglectful and abusive. I'm really just venting even though I feel better now. I just feel guilty for being bitter.

Dear User, I want to start by acknowledging the pain and frustration you're experiencing in your relationship with your dad and the neglectful and abusive environment you've grown up in. It's completely understandable that seeing your father passed out on the couch triggered feelings of bitterness and resentment. It's challenging to navigate such difficult family dynamics, especially when your needs for emotional and physical support have been consistently dismissed. From a Buddhist perspective, it's important to recognize that feelings of anger, bitterness, and guilt are natural responses to the circumstances you've described. It's human to feel these emotions when faced with neglect and mistreatment. Buddhism teaches us to acknowledge and accept our emotions without judgment or attachment, understanding that they arise due to causes and conditions beyond our control. By acknowledging and accepting your feelings, you can begin to cultivate compassion for yourself and your experiences. From a psychological perspective, it's clear that you have been carrying a heavy emotional burden for a long time. The neglect and abuse you have endured can contribute to physical and mental health issues, such as chronic pain and anxiety. It's crucial for your well-being to seek professional support from a doctor or therapist who can help you navigate these challenges and provide the necessary care. In terms of coaching advice, I would encourage you to prioritize your own well-being and seek the support you need. Firstly, consider finding a trusted healthcare professional who can address your chronic pain, anxiety, and other physical symptoms. They can help diagnose and manage your conditions, potentially providing relief and improving your overall quality of life. Secondly, it might be beneficial for you to explore therapy or counseling to address the emotional toll of your past experiences. A trained therapist can provide a safe space for you to process your feelings, heal from past traumas, and develop coping strategies for dealing with difficult emotions. Lastly, remember to practice self-care and self-compassion. Engage in activities that bring you joy, relaxation, and inner peace. Surround yourself with supportive and understanding individuals who can provide a sense of belonging and care.