God, Mazu, why you don’t let my wishes come true, instead, you make me more ugly? and make my money less and less for my ugly face? wear mask all day long. And let no one love me?why? And you destroyed my sense of smell, let me can’t smell other people’s stinky. Why people around me treat me so bad? They are so cold blood and cruel to me, but pretend they are not. I feel so tired, no one can love, no one loves me, everyone treats me not good.and I become old and ugly, what can I do?

Dear (相談者), I can feel the pain and frustration in your words, and I want you to know that you are not alone in your suffering. Life can be challenging, and it can often feel like our wishes are not being fulfilled. In Buddhism, we believe in the law of karma, which states that our actions, thoughts, and intentions have consequences. It is possible that the difficulties you are facing now are the result of past actions or negative patterns of thinking. In addition, from a psychological perspective, it is important to acknowledge that our self-perception can greatly impact how we experience the world around us. If we constantly view ourselves as ugly or unlovable, we may unintentionally project this energy outward, which can then affect the way others treat us. It's important to remember that beauty is subjective and that everyone has their own unique qualities that make them special. Regarding people's behavior towards you, it's important to recognize that we cannot control how others choose to act. However, we do have the power to choose how we react and respond to their actions. Sometimes, people may be dealing with their own insecurities, fears, or challenges, which can cause them to act cold or cruel. It is not a reflection of your worth or value as a person. Now, let's talk about what you can do moving forward. It is crucial to cultivate self-compassion and practice loving-kindness towards yourself. Start by focusing on your positive attributes, talents, and qualities. Surround yourself with positivity and engage in activities that bring you joy and fulfillment. Remember that true beauty comes from within. Work on developing a loving relationship with yourself, and seek support from friends, family, or a therapist who can provide guidance and assistance. It may also be helpful to shift your perspective and redirect your focus towards gratitude and abundance. Instead of dwelling on what you believe is lacking in your life, try to find gratitude for the things you do have. This shift in mindset can help attract positivity and abundance. I understand that it can be exhausting to go through these challenges alone, but please remember that you are never alone. Seek support from others, and consider connecting with your spiritual community or finding a mentor who can guide you along your journey. Remember, (相談者), you are worthy of love and happiness. The path may be difficult, but it is also an opportunity for growth and transformation. Trust in your own resilience and the power within you to create positive change in your life. With compassion and care, HOTOKE AI